Sometimes it's easy to close a chapter with someone. Sometimes it's not, for a whole lot of reasons. Often it's easier to write off someone who's nasty and destructive compared to someone who's not.
It has taken a long time, relatively speaking, for me to sit down and write the closing chapter regarding you, whom I shall not name.
You aren't a bad person. You have a good heart. You have certain life experiences that affected the way you do things. You are successful in your own way despite the odds and negativity surrounding your environment.
We have had plenty of happy moments, happy memories, and constructive experiences together. For these I appreciate very much and acknowledge that I have learnt something useful. Thank you for all these.
But then, we must come back to reality. It's time to move on. For you and for me. I have reserved myself for you for long enough, and asked the key questions not once, but several times. And you have chosen not to join me. So be it.
If I see you, I shall wish you well, and may you find your happiness wherever it may be. Although I personally think you won't find it so easily, for reasons most closely related to your own self.
All the best to you. Letting go is never easy but I have to for the sake of reality.
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有時好容易結束一個連劇集。有時冇咁容易。如果嗰個人好𨶙臭又衰又姦嘅話，比較容易放手，佢在生在死都唔關我事。不過通常，我識得嘅人唔會衰到咁極端啦。
我要寫呢個結束集，關於一個人，只稱呼＂你＂。其實我經過好耐時間先寫到呢個結束。
你唔係姦人。你嘅心入便係好嘅。係你嘅生活背景，經過嘅嘢，參到嘅人，長大嘅時候，呢啲全部影響到你嘅選擇，影響到你做嘅嘢。雖然生活俾你好多限制，你都克服到呢啲障礙。所以我都佩服你。
我哋曾經一齊分享好多開心嘅時刻，剎那，同埋一齊學咗好多嘢。為咗呢啲全部，我感謝你。多謝嗮。呢啲真係有幫到我。
講嚟講去，都係要返返嚟現實世界。時間到咗。你要行你條路，我要行我條路。我有問過你唔只一擺，係幾擺，你嘅答案都係咁樣。你唔愛行呢條路。就係咁啦。
如果我見到你，我會祝你好運。希望你會搵到你追求嘅幸福無論喺何方。但係我覺得你唔會咁容易搵到，原因係喺你自己入便。
祝你好運。放手唔係咁容易，不過呢個係一個現實世界，唔理我鍾唔鍾意，都係冇變囉。
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